Depression: Stuck in the Pit
OK, a bit about me and my background: I'm a male and live in the UK. I've had depression for over 25yrs. When I was 28 I tried to overdose on paracetamol, ended up in a mental health hospital for a month or two. When I was 32 I got a girlfriend, she had her own mental health issues, and unfortunately after 10yrs or so the relationship ended. It was a pretty muddled one and we had broke up and got back together several times. I look back and hate how it became, I just think it was impossible to work. I blame myself a lot, but it was a toxic relationship. It was great at times, and bad at times. Anyway when that ended I wanted to commit suicide again, and I figured that jumping from a bridge would be the way this time. I got close to doing it several times, but worried if it went wrong. I considered crashing my car at high speed, but the same worries put me off. Since the breakup I fell out with my parents, they let me down when I was at my worst, specifically my mum. I was in